Now that I’ve caught up on my posts, I wanted to share that I had my 34 week check-up and a follow-up ultrasound yesterday. Ms. Kim graciously kept Charlie for me, and I dropped her off around 1 pm so she would (hopefully) get a good nap in.

My ultrasound detected a couple things: my placenta is still low. This shouldn’t be an issue as I’m already scheduled for a c-section. I will most likely go back for another follow-up ultrasound in a couple weeks and we’ll keep monitoring it.

The other thing is that the baby seems to be measuring small, particularly in the abdomen area. Dr. Roth wanted me to stay and have a fetal non-stress test done (commonly called an NST) so that we could monitor her heartbeat and make sure she’s active, etc. Well, I know for a fact she’s active because she’s waking me up all hours of the night (way more than Charlie ever did) but I called Vann and he picked Charlie up so I could stay.

Pretty non-eventful…everything was fine. I didn’t leave the office until close to 7 pm. I was tired and hungry, but it was good to have the long train ride home to think and reflect on the day. Aside from the abdomen, the rest of the baby is measuring perfectly. She is around 4 pounds right now…but Vann and I know that we make small babies (Charlie was a flat 6 at birth) so I am honestly not concerned about her, with 5 weeks to go. Dr. Roth looked me in the eye and told me she was not worried. We will go back next week for another NST, but after that I will be seeing her once a week anyway, so it stands to reason I will be visiting her office quite a bit in the next month.

Life is so fragile, isn’t it? I think that we all take it for granted that a healthy baby is a given. The nine months of pregnancy really are the ultimate test of trust. All we have to go on are some grainy pictures of her profile and a doppler reading on her heartbeat every couple weeks. You feel the affects of the changes going on in your womb: heartburn, pelvic pressure, shortness of breath, etc…but you don’t really know this child until you are holding her in your arms.

As we near the final days of this pregnancy, I am struck at how miraculous and faithful God is. Lord knows, my prayer life has seen better days. I am often afraid that I have run out of God’s grace…that I am nearing the end of His goodness. But I know that God doesn’t work like that. He continues to knit together this tiny being in my belly and will be bringing her into this world in a short, short time. All that we can do is pray and prepare as much as is humanly possible.

Please pray for our little girl and her development in this next month! We are so excited to meet her and see her for the first time.