I’m trying my best to keep it together today. I’m afraid I’ve already left some pretty tearful messages.

I’ll be brief: We had Baby Ella’s 15 month check-up today and her weight has basically stalled. She’s gained only a few ounces since November. Our doc told us not to panic – and I’m really trying not to – but it’s hard when you realize that this might be bigger than you can reasonably handle.

We’ve gotten a referral to Baylor Hospital’s pediatric feeding clinic. It actually looks pretty amazing – I was concerned it was only a place for severe cases but it appears they deal with all sorts of feeding problems (behavioral, etc). I’ve left a message and hopefully will hear something back soon.

About 95% of me really wants to feel sorry for myself right now. But Marla reminded me that this might be just what we need to find our way out of this mess. And if we have experts at our disposal, maybe it’s time to seek out that expertise.

So I’m sorry that I haven’t taken any recent pics of the girls, and I’m sorry that this is Valentine’s Day and I have no cute post about the adorable heart dress Charlie is wearing today. I just ask for your prayers as we navigate through this time. We really, really need them!!