{"id":6,"date":"2014-04-16T16:01:00","date_gmt":"2014-04-16T16:01:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/almostjuliet.com\/index.php\/2014\/04\/tapestry\/"},"modified":"2018-04-23T16:51:27","modified_gmt":"2018-04-23T16:51:27","slug":"tapestry","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/almostjuliet.com\/index.php\/2014\/04\/tapestry\/","title":{"rendered":"Tapestry."},"content":{"rendered":"

There are about a million other things I should be doing right now (if you\u2019ve seen my kitchen you know how quickly the dailies catch up with me) but I can\u2019t get something out of my head.\u00a0 Ever since I attended Hope Spoken, I\u2019m struggling to get back up on the mountaintop.\u00a0 The weekend was so beautiful and so Spirit-filled \u2013 \u201cthis HAS to be what Heaven is like\u201d, I heard a million times over \u2013 it\u2019s hard to adjust back to real life. \u201cTell Your Story\u201d \u2013 that\u2019s what Hope Spoken<\/a> was about.\u00a0 One night, a year ago, after I read Casey\u2019s blog<\/a>, I felt the Holy Spirit\u2019s whisper on my heart.\u00a0 I knew I needed to be buy a ticket to this conference she wrote about \u2013 no matter that it was a full year away and I didn\u2019t know one other soul that was attending \u2013 I had to go. Last year was a tough one, maybe the hardest in our 8 year marriage.\u00a0 Despite the addition of our precious Vivie, pregnancy was difficult and life with a newborn and two other children was a huge learning experience.\u00a0 My mental health the past 4 years has not been the best.\u00a0 I struggle daily with my insecurities and second guessing.\u00a0 I am swift to criticize myself.\u00a0 I was always sensitive, even as a little girl.\u00a0 Vann always tells me my expectations are too high \u2013 that no one can ever live up to what I imagine in my head.\u00a0 I think empathy plays a big part in that \u2013 I never understand why people don\u2019t do things the way I do them.\u00a0 Or I often find myself being the pursuer in friendships \u2013 because I crave intimacy so much, I\u2019ll knock you down to get it.\u00a0 And I realize I spend so much of my time pursuing, hustling, if you will \u2013 and all the while, the Lord is pursuing me.\u00a0 My Jesus is following after me with so much love, and so much care, and I keep saying (as I do to my kids), \u201cI\u2019ll be right there, hold on a minute, give me a sec\u201d.<\/p>\n

One of the biggest lessons I came away from Hope Spoken with is that my ministry for now, is my family.\u00a0 Trust me when I say, that is no small feat.\u00a0 I recognize and appreciate the massive responsibility raising three little lives is.\u00a0 It\u2019s hard to hear that voice say \u201cWait.\u00a0 Not now.\u201d\u00a0 I am impatient and I think I know best for my life.\u00a0 I want instant gratification.\u00a0 I want my whole life now. My Mom shared a great analogy with me the other day \u2013 what would it be like if we thought of our lives as a great tapestry?\u00a0 We are underneath and we can\u2019t see the final product \u2013 but the Great Weaver can.\u00a0 He sees all of the beautiful colors, the stories woven together to make a grand, glorious work of art.\u00a0 We want to see that entire tapestry now.\u00a0 At least, I do.\u00a0 Sometimes I think, why bother writing when maybe only a handful of people care about what I have to say anyway?\u00a0 But a wise, beautiful friend of mine recently told me that she thinks of her writing as her art.\u00a0 No matter who is reading it, whether it\u2019s one person or 20,000, writing for God is why she sits down and puts her thoughts on the page. And so it seems to me, if I can start offering up to God my simple musings, my ministry \u2013 that hopefully at some point \u2013 something ministers to you.\u00a0 If one person resonates with what I have to say then it will be worth it.\u00a0 Proverbs 3: 5-6 says, \u201cTrust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.\u201d<\/strong><\/em> The Great Weaver knows where my story goes from here.\u00a0 My Jesus pursues me, His creation \u2013 I am exactly who He created me to be and am exactly where He wants me to be.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

There are about a million other things I should be doing right now (if you\u2019ve seen my kitchen you know how quickly the dailies catch up with me) but I can\u2019t get something out of my head.\u00a0 Ever since I attended Hope Spoken, I\u2019m struggling to get back up on the mountaintop.\u00a0 The weekend was […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/almostjuliet.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/almostjuliet.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/almostjuliet.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/almostjuliet.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/almostjuliet.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/almostjuliet.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4223,"href":"https:\/\/almostjuliet.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6\/revisions\/4223"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/almostjuliet.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/almostjuliet.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/almostjuliet.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}