{"id":90,"date":"2011-06-12T15:52:00","date_gmt":"2011-06-12T15:52:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/almostjuliet.com\/index.php\/2011\/06\/year-of-my-life\/"},"modified":"2018-04-21T17:22:25","modified_gmt":"2018-04-21T17:22:25","slug":"year-of-my-life","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/almostjuliet.com\/index.php\/2011\/06\/year-of-my-life\/","title":{"rendered":"A Year of My Life."},"content":{"rendered":"

I read an article once that a high percentage of women would give up a couple years of their LIVES to have the perfect body.  Well, I didn\u2019t take that poll but you know, I get it.  My journey with negative self-talk in regards to my body started a long time ago, and when I look back at the things I complained about when I was teeny\u2026it makes me want to slap the old me.  Used to be, being a size 2 was the pinnacle.  I would sit in casting agency waiting rooms and inwardly freak out as model after model would filter in.  I\u2019m sure you\u2019ve heard this story before: my patented mantra was \u201cI am a child of God, I am a child of God\u201d \u2013 it was the only thing that kept me sane in that world of beautiful women.  Now, mind you, I smoked a lot of cigarettes at the time.  And I didn\u2019t eat much.  Once when I auditioned for a \u201cmovie\u201d (I use that term loosely only because I\u2019m not really sure how much \u201cproduction value\u201d there was), the director told me I didn\u2019t get the part because I needed to lose a little bit of my \u201croundness\u201d.  Just wanted to let that feel good moment sink in.  See???  How can you not have a pseudo eating disorder with that kind of encouragement everyday???!!! Vann would say that back then I was never happy with my body.  Which pretty much means that my sweet hubby has had to listen to me bitch about yo-yo dieting and portion control for 6 YEARS.  Sorry, honey. Here\u2019s what I don\u2019t<\/em> like hearing: \u201cBut think about what your body DID????  YOU GAVE LIFE TO SOMEONE!!!!\u201d  Yes, I love my girls, but I don\u2019t love the body they left behind.  Sound selfish??  Well.  There it is.  Let me just put out there what we are ALL thinking: after you have babies your body is just never going to be the same.  I don\u2019t care if you\u2019re Heidi Klum \u2013 the VAST majority of mamas in the world have to work their asses off to even attempt<\/em> to fit back into those pre-prego jeans. Which brings me to yet another lifestyle change for this girl.  I\u2019ve been working out since last fall.  I\u2019ve done boot camps, started walking outside again with the girls, anything and everything to help jumpstart this process back to the old me.  When I didn\u2019t reach my goal by my birthday in March, I turned it up a notch.  I discovered Turbofire<\/a>.  I\u2019ve been taking Turbokick classes and spin (and doing TF dvd\u2019s at home) for over 6 weeks now.  4-5 days, sometimes 6, a week<\/em>. Never in my life have I ever done this much bleeping cardio.  And I step on the scale at a friend\u2019s house (because I don\u2019t own one) and wait for it\u2026I\u2019ve GAINED weight.  Errr.  What??  Not a ton, but a little, enough to worry me and enough to scare me off of alcohol (because even if it\u2019s a Skinnygirl margarita, it defeats the purpose if you have them every night of the week) and my nightly S\u2019more.  I just don\u2019t get it!!  I\u2019m not sure if I\u2019ve been over-compensating for the huge amount of exercise I\u2019ve been doing by buying a little more ice cream, or indulging in another glass of wine\u2026thinking that if I\u2019m burning 600 calories in class I can surely have the freedom to eat what I want.  Sigh.  So would I give up a year of my life to not have to work so hard??  To have a lean surfer\u2019s body like my girl Cam??: \"SNF19BIZS-280_1254933a\"<\/a> Possibly.  Most likely.  But, if it matters, I have<\/em> learned how to throw a mean punch. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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